More of me... more from California.....

Im not always honest on my blog.. well let me rephrase that... I am not always completely open.. I have my moments where I think .. if I write that what will people think? What will they say? I have moments where I am consumed by the appearances of life rather than the reality of it... and yet we are all living in the reality right?
We all have our faults.. we all have our issues... we all are in fact dare I say human? This is all about learning and growing and well, figuring it all out. It is a challenge every day... the balance of right and wrong and teaching our children about it all. I feel greatfull to be experiencing it all even if I cant spell greatfull right.... I feel honored to be my childrens mom, thankfull to be my husbands wife.... I have some amazing people in my life both around me and not and I am indebted to them. I am lucky to have family that I consider my best of friends.

I had a wild wild dream the other night... crazy wild.... the kind of dreams that you wake from and think...................... what?????????? why????????????? huh??????????????
but in my dream there was a message... and I guess its time to listen...
Let go...... let God.
Let go....... let God.
Im listening... I promise... I really am.