"Anyone who imagines that bliss is normal- is going to waste a lot of time running around shouting that he has been robbed. The fact is that most putts don't drop, most beef is tough, most children grow up to be just people, most successful marriages require a high degree of mutual toleration, and most jobs are more often dull than otherwise. Life is just like an old time rail journey with delays, sidetracks, smoke, dust, cinder, and jolts, interspersed occasionally by beautiful vistas and thrilling bursts of speed. The trick is to thank the Lord for letting you have the ride."---Pres. Gordon B. Hinckley
"The greatest mistake you can make in life is to be continually fearing you will make one." - Elbert Hubbard


Wednesday, January 7, 2009

this land is your land.........

you remember the song right? this land is your land this land is my land.......................................

its hit home.
in a wierd.. uncomfortable manner. And I am saddened by it. I took photos on Sunday and they feel funny... fuzzy.... grey.

and it has to be said but I am not sure how to say it.

Do you see this?

Your actions are taking this.. this look... this love. his love.
And I am sorry... but not as sorry as I know one day you will be.
are you sad? are you sorry?

He is amazing.. and not in the little boy who can be controlled amazing. He is so much more. He is a man to be proud of ....who loves his family and protects his kids and his wife. He is amazing. Im sorry you feel unrequited...........I am.... this is not what was supposed to be.
it isnt.
i take his photos and i see you........ and it hurts because he does.... and i want you to call and say you are sorry......and you dont.

so may you enjoy him... enjoy us.. through these pages.... through these words.. these photos. May you peek into our world if only for only a moment.

we could have had so much more.

if only.


Jodi said...

Oh Kelly...this breaks my heart. I wish there was something we could do for you guys. Just remember that we are here for you if you need us. We love you!

Emmett Family said...

Please give me a call when you have a minute. Love Ya!

Stephanie said...

Kelly, You and Jerid are both such amazing, talented and wonderful people. I love you for your strength, emotions and determination. Jerid is strong, bold and loving. I know you will get through this. One step at a time...and try to add in a laugh just to help. Please call if you ever need to talk.

Martha Bravo said...

Kell no clue what is going on in your world but it sounds terrible. I just want you to know that I am here if you ever need me.
Take care my friend and I hope things better and resolved soon.
By the way those photos of Jerid took my breath away. I hope they send they message you wanted to.