day 4.....

I spend alot of time driving... driving and thinking... driving and some days being angry... somedays I feel like this is not the life I chose... like this life is toooo hard... too much... too little.. its hard to explain. I took a chance and this is my life, and well... I wouldnt want anything else. But I have to be honest right? Some days it is hard.

I couldnt do it without Jerid... I honestly couldnt... it wouldnt be the same... its funny, I never believed in love before him... Id hear people talk about "the love of their lives" or the half that makes them whole or the ying to the yang... id laugh... id been in love... it was never like that.. it was never a completion.. not until him. Not until that first night, not until he was there in his duster... half way across Nevada.. somewhere near Austin... not until then did I get it.... I met him there and could not imagine my life without him in it..... I understood in a mere second what everyone had been talking about.... I knew.......
our life is crazy.. but it is ours.......... and that is something wonderful to be thankful for.......



A man to love... wonderful children.... promise of better days.. honestly, could one want for more????????